Cleanliness is the road to ....wait what?

That's right!! Today is the *big* *big* *big* day! Where I clean the house with my best friend...
Ofc atm I'm "slacking" a bit seeing as I'm now right here writing in this blog... but what the hell.. lawl...

It all started with the awaiting visit from our Landlady..
That's right...don't we all love that?
No not really..
Thing is..this particular Dragon, who's name should not be named for the sake of our housing, is a bit picky on how things look.. well ok *alot*...
I've actually never met her, but the first impression I'm getting from my other room mates here, are not that good..
I mean, the terrifying look on their faces when I spread the news of her "visit" spoke for itself. lol...
So now we've been really really "housewifeie", and no neither of us are married...yet... but ..'

Yvonne calls me to check out the "new" livingroom we have now.. 
wich ended up in a smoke break aswell... yey!


30min later...


I'm back!


And now the dog is driving the whole household nuts. lol... the poor chihuahua down stairs is trying to eat her food, but my "little" man here is more interested in sniffing her bum... I can understand her annoyance! lol
I have to remind myself next time we're on IKEA to buy one of those kiddie things to put at the stairs so he actually stays up here. lol.. some of her assistants are a bit scared of this cute clumsy pooch. :(

Look at this sweety baby face! How can anyone be scared of that ey? :)

And the land lady just called... apparently she's not coming today.. lol... but tomorrow or Sunday..

Oh well, atleast we got the house all ready, she asked me if I'd put over the monney, wich I had ofc, so she was happy. Only thing is I need to pay another 6k this month for rent...because she, in an evil way, but that's how "they" are here...she's not norwegian...so I'll leave it like that...

She wants me to pay "rent" from I *visited* here aswell, so she's charging me from December 28th until 15 Jan. And she wants 4k for that... and then the 15th she want's 6k.. so I put over 10k to her, that covers the deposit of 6k and her 4k for my "visit" here. And then now I'm applying for jobs, but I wont get payed until next month, so these two months are gonna be fucking sick..I'm going down to the unemployment office on monday, since I then got my contract from here, which I need to have with the application so they know for a fact I have that to pay.

And on top of that I have most likely *a lot* of bills this month.... sigh...

I don't know what to do, so I'll just have to wait until my X decides to drop off today with all my stuff and my mail, so that I can get an overview of what I have to pay this month in bills.

There's not *a lot* of them, but I've got one that's over 2k, which is child support, and then I have some others that are around 1k, because that's down-.payment on other bills that I have...

Oh well..

I just have to see....

And I miss my darling... :(

I haven't spoken to him at all today... he didn't tell me he had to go to the office, so I was worried sick all day, because I couldn't get a hold of him. :(

He finally contacted me a few hours ago telling me he left he's phone at home, was at the office, and that he couldn't talk, but would be home in not too long...

That was...3h ago... :( Still nothing...

I can't help it, but I do get a bit panicked, because last night I fucked up...truly... I said something I *really* shouldn't have said, not on purpose of-cause, but he took it ofc very very badly, and I felt like a fucking idiot. :( He had every right to get upset with me.... I still feel very bad about that.. I just hope he knows deep inside that I truly didn't mean to say it like that... I should have known he would have thought a completely different thing then what I meant. :`(

Tbh I was scared to death that he didn't want to talk to me because of it... but atleast I got he's message, so that made me worry less, but I'm still worried though... typical me.... *sigh*...

My X is bringing my stuff over tonight.. I poked him on MSN to try and find out when, but he wasn't sure when, but said he was going to call once he was on he's way here, which means 45min after he's called me, he should arrive...

Thank god... then I will finally have my stuff here, my pc table etc etc.. will be nice to actually get some stuff in this room. lol... atm it looks like a completely empty room apart from a soda case to have my laptop on, my bed, a table, a lamp, and the dog cage.. lol...

Looks a bit...empty... =P

Well that's it for now I think. lol...

I love you so very very much Stephen... please forgive me... :`(

Bryan Adams - Please Forgive Me

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on

So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me

This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch

We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do

One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'... 

x x x x x